went to Frankfort this weekend and i learned...

Shar Jackson is not spelled with a CH
My boyfriend and I are perfect for each other
My family is good fun
I miss my friends (specific: when we all went up for my birthday)
I'm getting good at tennis
Fishing at 5 am is extreme relaxation

I'm thinking about getting a new job in town. any ideas? no fast food or uniform preferably

How was your memorial day weekend?

Its been a while since I posted so I'll catch anyone who's interested up...

I am doing not as well as I would like in a lot of my classes, I've been working my ass off but sometimes you just cant do well, I've come to terms with it.

My family is doing pretty well, my mom told me to move my stuff out of my bedroom, but the next day didnt remember, so i think i still have a home. I basically live at Cameron's now anyway, it's pretty weird how his family has taken me in, doing my laundry, paying for my meals but its nice, also i get along with my family much more when i only see them for sunday dinner.

Socially, I went out last thursday and partied really hard, turns out i was taking double shots instead of regular but it was a well needed escape after a crappy day. i very much enjoy the friends i've made on campus although i only get to hang out with them every now and then.

Cameron and i are happier  then ever, we had a rough spot, first time in the 5 months we've been dating, but everything's back to normal and i think he's coming home tonight. our relationship is so perfect, and i love him more then anything.

Sunday I brought evan over to cameron's house and we jumped on the trampoline and played in the fort in the backyard and messed around with the puppy. He kept saying he wanted to go to "my" house more often. it was really cute and a lot of fun. i love the little monkey so much! as well, as maddie mae, who is learning how to talk really well. she does pretty well except when she gets confused about what things are. for example, she meowed at the fur on my coat and consistently calls the snow, bubbles. she's adorable. and in the words of landen "sooooo cute"

I miss

if anyone is interested in doing secret santas this year let me know cause i'll arrange them, and/or if anyone wants to help that'd be awesome! let me know

anyone going home wednesday night who wants to give me a ride?

Classes are starting to get really stressful. I have two exams today that I am currently unprepared for! My exams have been going well so far thus receiving a 4.0 on my calc exam, a perfect Computer's exam, and a 3.5 on my intro to business exam! as well my paper in my EAD class (that i wrote the night before) received a 3.5! Hopefully things keep the trend and I wont have to transfer to Western! Keep me in your prayers

Everything else is going really well! I miss you all by the way, its been far too long since i've seen any of you, lets work on this.

Have a Good Day
Sincerely,
Celine Therese Sanborn
(i dont know why i added that, jut seemed like fun)

today everything makes me want to cry





so i took i took a shower to relax and empty my eyes






nothing was accomplished



the end

School: going really well, i'm a little nervous about getting the grades i want and am kind of overwhelmed by the whole process but I can only do my best right?

Family: not being around them really helps the relationship, my mom has proved to be pretty cool paying my speeding ticket I obtained going down to western without her permission, and taking care of my cell phone issue... by the way if u need to contact me I dont have my cell phone right now, I might this weekend, but as of now i'm using my mothers and u can get the number on my voicemail of my cell phone

Cameron: still the best thing that has ever happened to me. he came and stayed with me last night and it was extreme amounts of fun. I actually cried when I saw him because I was so happy, even though it was only 48 hours in between visits. our three month is on friday! only 3 months and we've named our kids, planned our future, and are plotting about getting matching tattoos in december. (any suggestions on where? as of now we're planning on quarter sized outlines of a star, maybe my hip area?) did i mention i love him more then anything in the world... and guess what! the feeling is mutual! lucky me!

Social: i havent made as many friends as i'd like at state, going out tomorrow should help that, i've met enough people to where its fun, but not enough to where i feel like i'm "cool" and it sucks i feel like i'm growing away from all my friends from saint johns... if we havent hung out lately give me a call because we cant drift!

Me: still need to figure out a schedule of eating and sleeping and exercising and studying, any tips?

classes have been going really well, i dont think i'll have a problem getting the gpa i want, it will be a lot of work and my macroeconomics class is the only one i think will be tough despite the work i do. keep me in your prayers and wish me good luck!

the transition of cameron leaving was not as hard as i thought... dont get me wrong i miss him more then anything else i left but i now have no doubts that we'll be together for a long time... thank god for mutual unconditional and fun as hell love.

happy, or anyone else interested, how do you feel about designating a night to knitting? i really wish i could learn and i brought my needles with me so i figured if we worked it in our schedules to meet once a week just to catch up and knit it would be overall good for our friendships and the knitting community

as well, if anyone is going to saint johns friday afternoon so i can get a ride home... preferably around 11 i would really appreciate it!

welcome weekend has started off great!!! went to a party got free beer hung out with some really good guys and my roommate! seeing cameron every now and then is great i will miss the hell out of him! my room is awesome its so nice to be on my own!

if anyone wants to come and visit give me a call!

Various Thoughts...

-nervous about moving in tuesday
-cant wait for cameron to come home
-wish i would stop feeling sick
-dont feel like hanging out with people anymore
-dont want school to start
-nervous about classes starting
-stressed about everything
-need a paycheck real bad
-dont want my relationship status to change
-wished my family didnt suck
-wish i was more prepared for life
-never have enough time to accomplish anything

realizations:
-my friends are the most wonderful people i know
-jessica and i can get along
-i am a girly girl who needs to live in clean spaces
-i want all my children to grow up and be just like andy
-rick and i dont know each other very well
-you guys were right about sid
-waldo lives in germany
-nice restaurants arent the place for 8 hyper teenagers
-tigger highly values dessert
-coming home is wonderful

woke up in the arms of an gorgeous man
ate ice-cream for breakfast
watched a silly movie in my pajamas
bonded with a best friend before he left for band camp
hung out with cameron's family... got to hold and feed his beautiful niece!
went and saw lady in the water-overall good movie
had cards night with carrrie chase and cameron
got really drunk and had lots of fun
bonded with my boyfriend and talked for hours about how much in love we are...its a lot

yesterday i snuck out of the house for the first time... coolest thing ever! as well as a success!

money makes me unhappy... i'm 660 in debt and i still have to buy books and all my dorm room stuff... SHIT!

boyfriend-still wonderful
friends-love u guys
family-improving, bucky and i have been bonding, he's coming skydiving with us and we've held conversations twice this week!
me-stressed, lazy, but utterly happy
thank you notes... pending

he made me angry... he more then made up for it! things are good again!

girls night was AMAZING: YAY FOR:
1. skinny dipping
2. peanut butter
3. truth or dare
4. taco bell
5. ...

julie's went okay... YAY FOR:
1. applauses
2. 5 moments of silence for mike
3. tubing
4. breaking out in song
5. seeing kim
6. swimming

i start my new job in a few hours. i should probably get some sleep.

sorry if it seems like i've been ditching you lately... i've been trying to balance friends/boyfriend/work/family/myself. sorry if it seems unbalanced but i am doing my best! i love you all and there is no reason i would purposely try to ditch you!

last night was probably one of the best nights of my life. i've never experienced someone on this level before. we connect in the strangest and most innocent ways. we laughed, we talked, we loved, we sat. we were. smiling inhabited my face in places i didnt know possible. he's spontaneous, warm, striking, and new. my goal will be reached... here's hoping for a late arrival.

today worked sucked because my manager is a bitch... on the plus side i have an interview monday for a job on campus! wish me luck!

cameron and i spent the weekend together and didnt fight once and had amazing fun times... and i got to meet his family and play with guns... we're perfect for each other.

my room is finally clean! cant find a pillow and my duvet cover but that just means i get to go hunting for it! yay!

i smell like mcdonalds... ewww...

oltp trip: the most amazing experience i've ever had! ask me about it sometime i'll tell you in annoying detail the adventure i had!
greg: he's home! i dont think i've ever been so happy to see someone in my entire life
tonight: annoying
friends: the most important thing in my life! i love you guys more then i can ever show! p.s. my phone is always on
summer: the best one yet.. so far!
life overall: cant get much better

Things in life to smile about

greg comes home in a few days (if you say it like that it seems closer)
evan still doesnt fail to make me love life to it's fullest
cameron
meeting normal people at orientation
having new furniture in my dorm
no science at msu!
sexy new computer and ipod
friends=amazingness i'll work on being there more for you guys!
summer-yay
realizing i've grown up a lot and liking who i am as well as knowing there's room for improvement and willing to go after it!

i was suppose to be at work right now... but they let me go home until 8!

date with jeremy:
-not too bad
-so bad it was fun
-painful
-humorous
-relaxing
-not too bad

(overall not to shabby of a time... dammit!)

life-stressful cant wait till summer can really begin!